BIRD’S MISSION TWEET

    Mission: I have so much inside of me that just needs to be untethered.  I have been working on myself and all that is hidden for so many years and now, is time I start allowing this incredible flight I have been on to be released.  My intention is to contribute some strategies that inspire me to grow and that helps me  clear myself and unlock energy.  Years of annoyance that oozed from the most bizarre circumstances left me puzzled and feeling ragged out.  So I now challenge myself to just let it out on paper and with truth being the guide and let it all go…..as best as I can…….The good, the bad and the crazy.

    Learning to love myself has been the greatest challenge of all my time.  I thought I loved or even liked myself but my actions were not always lining up with the words.  So I pushed and pulled myself in any direction that alleviated the stress bombs and tried to find a happy medium to perch on.  I had no direct strategy except to keep myself afloat and work endlessly on my survival skills in which the successes  allowed me some peace at the end of the day.  

    I never even thought about what do I want or like or need.  I only excepted the comings and goings of people places and things.  I really learned to stay clear of the shitstorms by moving on when situations were just not quite right for me.  I chose flight over fight without any idea what that meant.  I became stronger and more callous as the years went by and I soon began to only rely on myself.

    One of the most critical moments of clarity came with the gift of two amazing beings that I was lucky enough to give birth too.  Boys that came through me in a little over two years and it was the first realization of I am permanently grounded.  No flight is going to happen here.  I am now facing the true reflection of myself through these littles.  It was through them I learned  to love and change, it continues through this day and probably until I leave this planet and maybe even after that!!  The realization that success was now about all of us making it, not just me.  I had to consider what was best for the entirety and how to move through unsettling feelings and learn to let go of the judgements.  The constant reminder of reality and how actions speak louder than words and how action is key to movement.  

    A huge amount of living has gone by and a gigantic amount of change has occurred.  Life has taken me on a path with amazing mysteries and numerous revelations.  Just knowing this has led me to believe that there are tons of other learnings and lessons to be unlocked.  I hope this blogging can be a doorway to these truths.  My passion is to learn about why I do what I do and how to understand the way to not only talk the talk but also walk the walk.  I am not seeking perfection, I am only looking for some peace of mind in the midst of all the craziness that seems to constantly be swirling around me.  If unattended I seem to lasso this bizarreness and try and bring it down.  It never works!!  I failed to realize that it is happening for me and not to me.  I still fall into the trap, wanting to swallow the poison until I am ate up with fear based living.  But, I have learned as best I can harnessing strategies to navigate the happenings and to love them for whatever they are trying to tell me.  No longer do I lock down on it and no more swallowing and ignoring it.  Now is the time of being.  Witnessing all that is and realizing if digested correctly with love, and sometimes a primal scream, the situation resolves itself and dissipates all on its own.  

    Bringing light to this is my way of seeing it.  Bringing love to this is my way of feeling it.  Bringing it all to this blog is my way of sharing it.  My journey is to learn how to FLY.  FIRST LOVE YOURSELF…. and then drop those love bombs to any and all that ruffle my feathers.  Peace and Namaste, Bird